The seed had been planted by now. I surely wasn't the only woman who had been in this situation. Were they still stuck? Had they had a break down to experience a break through? Could I find a way to speed up the process for others so that they don't have year after painful year of trying to figure out why they can't lose weight healthily, and keep it off? I implemented my morning ritual and decided to make it non-negotiable from this point onwards, no matter what the day, emotion or stress. I set about learning everything I possibly could about the mind and it's link to eating disorders, it's power to create our reality based upon out of date conditioning and programming, it's power to protect us, yet destroy us. I became fascinated with how trapped emotions stored in our body affect our health on every level of our lives'. I learned and learned and learned-I invested heavily in online and offline courses, books and CD's and slowly I could piece together a picture of how the link between overeating and food addictions connect so strongly to our minds and our past and our emotions, and more importantly, how to undo that link to create new positive habits and behaviours.
A few months passed and I could see and feel my body and mind changing as my metabolism was starting to learn that I was no longer swinging from starvation to overindulgence and my morning ritual was levelling the rollercoaster of emotions life throws at you. I was being kinder to myself, opening up more about my true emotions to others, which was a key turning point for me.
September 2015 - I started to feel inside that I needed to be helping other women through their journey of being stuck in a yo-yo, self-destructive cycle with food, to break though and transform the relationship with food, their weight and their health and happiness, just as I was doing. But I didn't know where to start. Stop personal training? Stop massaging? Start life coaching? But my heart and passion lies with healing people with my hands. How could I still do everything I love AND help women to overcome their food addictions and lose weight on a deeper level than just exercise more and eat less?
As the Universe would have it, the solution found me! I fell upon an invite to join a pioneering new hypnotherapy course-the first in the country, only 30 people in the UK were invited - it is a method of hypnotherapy that cures people in one 90 minute session. I accepted it with both hands, just knowing this was something that fascinates me, and if nothing else, it would help myself, but at best could help other people too.
My relationship with food had remained positive and healthy, not perfect by any means yet, but what I had noticed was that a) it was not the end of the world for me anymore if I did slip out of a ‘clean’ way of eating and b) I could now observe and understand why these ‘slips’ were happening and link them back to what was happening for me in those situations, that may have come from out of date conditioning, or emotional links. I had gained awareness of my Self. I went back to the gym for the first time-I enjoyed being the one who was being taught, rather than the teacher-I had to step away from my ego and pride that people may recognise me and wonder why I was so big now, even though I was a fitness instructor and personal trainer. Instead of using exercise as a punishment like I had done in the past, it was like a healing experience for me each time I went-like it was piecing parts of me back together after years of self-harm and damage.
December 2015 - I qualified as a Marisa Peer Method (MPM) hypnotherapist! The course changed me at a deep soul level-I had come to understand my mind more than I ever had done, I had broken through my self-doubt and I felt unstoppable in following my desire to help other women with my passion and I knew I could do this using ALL of my qualifications and experience-why leave that behind when it is sooooo powerfully useful to the cause of helping people beat their food addictions, lose weight, stop their aches and pains and get more confidence? I had gained a tool that allowed me to not only explore my own mind, but to allow others to explore theirs too, so they could understand and re-programme their own minds.
Christmas was notoriously a difficult time for me with all that festive food around, but this year was completely different. enjoyed eating a wide range of foods, but I didn’t need to eat to excess-in fact, I was satisfied very easily and I even enjoyed more that the obligatory one annual brussel sprout! I no longer had thoughts that were dominated by food. The freedom and liberation that brings is incredible; from once planning the next meal before I’d even finished the one I was eating, to completely forgetting about food until I was hungry.
January 2016 - Now, MPM hypnotherapy was already a significant part of my business, I was experiencing huge fulfilment at seeing the changes in clients within 90 minutes of working with them, word was getting around about the transformational results that were occurring ‘in the room’ with me and I knew this had to be part of my life from hereonin. I was working with a range of conditions, from anxiety and phobias, to fertility, but I knew ultimately that my heart was being pulled to help women who were just like me; struggling with their weight issues, not able to control them, suffering from confidence issues as a result and general aches and pains too. So that’s what I set about doing; creating programs that would help lovely ladies, both on a one to one basis and in a small group format, to ‘beat their food addictions, lose weight, stop their aches and pains and get more confidence.’
I could see now that on odd occasions, there were situations that arose where I had to work with what I now knew about myself. If I was placed in a position where previously, I would’ve binged or I felt myself slipping back, I could look at the situation with fresh, curious eyes and create a choice for myself-stay the same as always and never changes, or change the habit of a lifetime and create a new pathway for my future. I chose the latter every time, even if it felt it would be difficult at times-I never want to go back to how I was 2 years ago. Ever.
June 2016 - As I narrowed down my zone of genius, more and more ladies were achieving incredible transformations with their weight, their confidence, but most importantly, their relationship with food. The foundation of ‘Break it Down, Break Through and Transform’ (BDBTT) was born and the business has grown from strength to strength from there. Based on taking focused, determined women on a supported journey through their weight loss, setting powerful goals, removing limiting beliefs and old negative food programming, creating limitless confidence and self-belief, removing aches and pains, simplifying the information out there about what you should and should’t eat, implementing a super powerful morning ritual and then ultimately, becoming consistent, so the transformations become more and more powerful for the rest of their lives’. A journey of going from fearful and anxious about the future, to recognising triggers and addressing them, to becoming curious and steadfast in exploring what is available for them for the future.
I am 3.5 stone down (approximately-I no longer feel the need to weigh myself, I consistently focus on how I feel and how my clothes feel when I’m wearing them). To have maintained that consistent, steady weight loss for over a year was previously unimaginable for me. My body thanks me every day for going from fast weight loss, that was back on within a few months, to a gradual weight loss transformation. My body is toned and strong as a result of consistency taking care of my body, not only with exercise, but self-care-massage, stretching, yet respecting it’s limits and boundaries.
'I didn't conquer or defeat my food addictions, I've left them behind. And as my mind left them behind, my body followed.'
October 2016 - I qualified as a Reiki Practitioner to further support my clients through their long-term weight loss journey at a deep, soul level.
I could see that the methods and strategies I had used to heal myself from my food addictions were also transforming the lives of others' with a variety of health and happiness issues, not just weight challenges. Business expanded and diversified into Holistic Health & Life Coaching with weight no longer being the sole focus, but address health and life challenges in a broader way, using the same methods I created myself.
February 2017 - Qualifying as a Chakredy(R) practitioner allowed me to make energy work more tangible, for myself and for my clients.
Accessing this deeper knowledge of energy allowed a blossoming of the energy healing and spiritual coaching as my intuitive and healing gifts emerged and became even stronger. The prominence of these intuitive insights were pulling me into the higher realms in a positive, liberating way; healing myself even further, growing in more confidence, visibility in my business and growing globally as a holistic health and life coach.
May 2017 - As a Reiki Master now, the power to heal people both in person and remotely was accelerated and my work became more and more online, reaching all over the world.
Whilst applying the grounded, scientific approaches to health and life through nutrition, movement and the subconscious, harnessing the power of spiritual, energy skills deepened the incredible transformative work I was doing with clients, allowing them to be even happier, healthier and achieving their Ultimate Health.
July 2017 - Working within the Akashic Records deepened the healing work I could do with clients around their limiting beliefs, negative programming as I could access all information from past lives', ancestral patterns and guidance for clients from their higher self.
Accessing this new and very different skill (from what I have been used to!) opened up a whole new world of potential for myself and my clients! As I spent more time in my Akashic Records, new intuitive gifts came available to me, clarity and creativity in my business emerged even more so and as a result, my business grew even more too. This lead to adding the business piece into my coaching work when required.
November 2017 - I qualified as a Clinical Hypnotherapist, clocking up over 450 hours of client work and continuous professional development.
January 2018 - Becoming a Reiki Master Teacher, the dream of taking people on a journey from healing themselves, to building a successful business healing others starts to come true.
This is not written to impress you, but impress upon you that you too could have all these benefits of changing yourself at a deep level and more, if you have the determination to succeed, the courage to dive deep into what has brought your health and happiness challenges about and the commitment to take consistent action to pursue the life of your dreams.